Edinburgh, sunset from Princess Street, on a freezing cold, beautiful sun-and-shadow shaped day. I love Edinburgh Old Town on days like that, with bright light hitting cold stone.
Things are a bit up in the air round here, with work stuff being changed around quite a bit, and knowing that we are going to be moving quite soon….but not sure where to…it could be across the city, it could be somewhere completely new. We are just waiting…
I don’t mind this kind of waiting, I think I just have to remember to live in the present moment each day. I tend to feel like I’m still a kid on the cusp of adulthood, on the brink of being a fully competent human being, but not quite there…yet. Not quite sure of myself just yet, or perhaps just aware that it’s all likely to change and grow again with the next big experience.
A friend sent me this poem/prayer, which helps a lot. I know I don’t normally post this kind of thing, but after a long January of soul-searching and indecision-making, it perfectly sums up where things are at for me.
Above all, trust in the slow work of God
We are quite naturally impatient in everything
to reach the end without delay.
We should like to skip the intermediate stages.
We are impatient of being on the way to something
unknown, something new.
And yet it is the law of progress
that it is made by passing through
some states of instability –
and that it may take a very long time.
And so I think it is with you.
your ideas mature gradually – let them grow,
let them shape themselves, without undue haste.
Don’t try to force them on,
as though you could be today what time
(that is to say, grace and circumstances
acting on your own good will)
will make of you tomorrow.
Only God could say what this new spirit
gradually forming within you will be.
Give Our Lord the benefit of believing
that his hand is leading you,
and accept the anxiety of feeling yourself
in suspense and incomplete.
Pierre Teilhard de Chardin, SJ